Choices

I was just wondering, what could have been if i took other choices back in the days..

Old classmates

I just came back from selling egg rolls at Steenwijks summer festivals.. Every wednesday during summer vacation we'll have these festifals in this town.. Pretty annoying, because this town has people i really can not, can not stand. I grew up here.. Went to school everyday, and everyday i thought, geez i cant wait to get out of here. I didnt went emo, i actually made some friends here.. Big whoop, always thought i should at least survive here, and when im gone, ill be gone!

During tonight i actually saw alot of old classmates.. And this post is because one particular person. I haven't spoken this kid like 6years orso.. I did my first 3years of HAVO with this kid.. And then i failed and had to do a class over again.. While he said that's too bad Kim Chi i'll be off thenn.. Good luck without me.. I actually didnt do so good.. I passed that year and after that i still had 2years to go.. And i actually failed again in that last year -_- so yea i was two years behind.. Big failure .. Untill i saw this kid again today.. I asked him almost done with your under graduate studies!???? He said no, i still have to do 2,5 year.. And i was like.. Dude whutt!?! I have to do 2years how is it that you still have to do 2,5 when i was 2 years behind!!! So yeah he also failed big time :p glad i wasnt the only one!

After some chitchat sum more, he pointed out to the ring on his finger: NO FRIGGIN WAY DUDE!!! he said kidding!! I almost had a heart attack.. Wtf marrying at our age, that's not good.. But he mentioned he does have a girlfriend for 3 years and he introduced her too, a real sweetheart really..

Yea, it was fun talkin to him again :)

Flashback before my days even began

"I'm selfish, impatient and insecure.
I make mistakes,
i'm out of control and at times hard to handle.
But if you can't handle me at my worst,
then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
-Marilyn Monroe

Lady cousins weekend

Last weekend we had a girls weekend. Ten ladies and we are all related.. We had a great evening out, dinning at Vandaag and some chillings afterwards. Being reunited again with all the girls brought me back to the birthday celebrations we used to have. Before every cousin would celebrate their birthday and we would come together again all boys and girls. We would have a great time with alots of food, talking and things to do. Take lots of pictures and laugh some more. Then later, it feld like everybody was celebrating his birthday twice a year.. So people started to say: well i'm not joining any celebration anymore. And there it ended the story of the happy family. We still love one and other duh.. We're family, but it's not that we will be celebrating birthday as big as we used to.

Miss you fam x

Funniest guy i know

Yesterday, i picked up the phone again to contact him. I usualy send a short tekst msg saying hey, long time no see eh! This kid, i fucking adore because he's the funniest kid to play around with. He usualy doesnt reply on my msgs :( always busy. But this time he did. Everytime i talk to this kid i am a happier person. Probably because i am always waiting for his phonecalls or msgs. And when he finally does i will know, that this kid is still the same as before. Unlike the others.

Miss you A

Star party at Maassilo

Yesterday I went to a party for students called the Starparty held in Maassilo with some girls. On our way to Maassilo we past some places that brought me flashbacks from last year. First we went with the tram to Wilhelminaplein.. Last year I was living the life, chilling all day with my Rotterfam. If we wanted to go bowling and we had to take the public transportation we would usually go to that stop and take the tram from there.
Then we went to the metrostation of Wilhelminaplein which also brought me a same like flashback, same people same time. That's where my friend told me that he used to skate there.. And I was like whuaaat!? No you didn't XD !! This guy like really.. Since I knew about him.. He has always been the "mooiboy". Picturing him.. Skating, noooo.. Hahah yess that was a special new of fact I learned about him.
So then we took the metro to Maashaven, which brought one other flashback that's a like, same people same time. Tai's home was near that station. That's the place we would crash after some bowling and drinking. We would drink there some more. And they would sleep some, and I would wake up at 7 doing dishes, and trying to clean up the filthy house he lived in.
I really miss them =[

Starparty on the other hand was great! Had some great time with my bestie roommate. Unfortunate I was pretty tired, and the thought that I would only have 4h sleep if we got home did not helped at all. In the end my feet were killing me, I only had 3h sleep, but had alotsssss of great time.

Passion

2nd year in school just started like 4 weeks ago. My summer sucked ass, and i'm kinda glad to be back in school. I closed off my first year during summerschool, which is accomplishment for me. Last time I was really thinking about my study. About what I can achieve and what I have achieved. I'm really starting to like my study.
I am studying Trade Management aimed on Asia at the University Rotterdam. With this study I'm forced to network, which is a good thing. I have never thought about it, but from the first year on you learn to network. Which means, working on your future, nomatter what are you going to do then.
Im very excited to finish my 2nd year, and next year i'm heading to asia, to study and go on internship. At my University they forced you to be coached by a teacher through your whole school carrier on the University. During these lessons we talk and brainstorm about these things, the now and the future.
Last week we talked about Passion. Some of my classmates came with sports activities, traveling and all that kind of stuff. I came up with FOOOOD, cause i passionately LOVE food. No.. I passionately love to eat the food. I showed my "business cards" only containing restaurants.
But I never thought about it really.. What is my passion REALLY.. I haven't figured it out yet. My friend asked me once.. What do you actually love to do after school.. And I went blanc, i guess eat? =P
I hope to figure it all out, at my study and my life next to it.